real big plans and such bad thoughts.

Whoa, I feel like doing one of those stupid 'have you ever' quizes, but instead I'm gonna write a journal that nobody will ever read. Probably.

It's not that I'm bored here in Holland or something, I just have some free time which I enjoy spending here on buzznet, sharing all my thoughts with you- even though you're not gonna read it. Whatever.

I like it here in Holland, I always did. All the time I wonder if things will ever change in Poland, and we will live our lives in, let's say, comfort. For instance, when you want to go somewhere by train in Holland, you go to the station, buy a ticket from a special machine (it takes about 3 minutes), pay by credit card and off you go. In my country, you have to stand in a queue and deal with an unpleasant lady who sells tickets. It seems like things are easier for people here.

I live in Hague (Den Haag), he third largest city of Holland. The streets are sometimes dirty and sea is so cold that I can hardly put my feet into the water. Of course I don't understand Dutch. We have a lot of immigrants here. No offence, but people from Turkey freak me out. One of the main advantages of the city is that shopping here is pretty awesome.

Well, I've abbandoned hope that Poland will ever be so tolerant for people of other religions, nationalities and especially sexual orientation. I'd love to be proud of my open-minded and liberal country, but I guess I'll never be.

Rotterdam is nice, but Amsterdam is definitely a must-see.

The problem is, I have no inspiration, no ideas. I just hang around, walk through the park and take flower macros or portraits of my younger brother, that no one but members of my family will ever desire to see. Now that I can finally use a decent camera for some time, I feel totally burned out. But I write stories, so I guess I'm still alive.

I have terrible nightmares here, I don't know why. Today in my dream I was almost dead and had no chance of escaping. Someone was making medical experiments on me, poisoning me one step at a time. Terrifying.

My real world friends are in Poland, minding their own businesses. Buzznet is kind of sleeping, most of my friends don't visit the site very often. I'd like to say: dzieki, Aniu (Yuugao), ze pozwolilas mi zawalic Twoja strone moimi dlugasnymi notkami bez wiekszego sensu.

Don't drink Coca-Cola Light lemon, guys. It sucks big time.

Reading: A Clockwork Orange

Watching: Total Drama Island

Listening: complete silence

If you've read through this random mess, feel free to call yourself a master.

I guess I've done something similar before, but who cares.

1. I'm in love with my bike. He is (because he's a guy) black and very handsome.

2. I seriously can't wait for holidays. My plans are incredibly amazing- I'm gonna ride my bike until I'll spit out my lungs, smoke cigarettes by the river and wave to strangers.

3. I have to dye my hair again, because I'm getting blonde.

4. I should've been learning Latin now. F**k.

5. I've finished reading Twilight series today. The fourth book was freakin' great.

6. Two months from now I'm gonna show some of my photos to my whole class. Jesus, I'm nervous right here and right now.

7. When I grow up, I'll be a famous journalist. You'll see my bloody face in television.

8. I adore high heels, earrings and colourful eyeliners.

9. I'm in love with a boy (oh, the word 'love' is too big here), who's a friend of one of my best friends. We go to additional English classes together, and yes, we like each other. But he'll never do anything but walking me to the bus stop. He's VERY self-confident, a centre of attention, everyone knows him. You know why I like him? His hair is a colour of honey.

10. I've been pretty sarcastic here.

I'm too lazy to tag anyone.

so, it was my last time on buzznet. I'm leaving.
I need more time for myself. to create my personality outside the virtual world.
I need to get a life.
things have changed here. I don't want to feel sad or underrated because of webpage that I previously loved.
I had a lot of fun here. I've met a lot of great people with amazing personalities. good luck with everything you want to do. because you are incredible and gorgeous. you'll rule the world someday, you know?
thank you for being there for me.

do moich polskich przyjaciół:
jesteście cudowni. dziękuję wam za wszystko, NIGDY o was nie zapomnę.
w razie czego wiecie, gdzie mnie szukać (n-k), ale przecież nie będziecie tęsknić.
kocham was bardzo.
no to cześć.

By: iska.

1) how are you at the moment?

good, relaxed and looking forward for today afternoon.

2) why?

I'm meeting my friends in the city.

3) give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.

yeah, you wish.

4) do you like yourself?

for sure I do. this is important to accept yourself in every minute of your life.

5) what do you like to do in your free time?

surf the internet, listen to music, read a book, watch some tv, go for a walk, meet my friends.

6) do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to[right now, from that place, are you confident enough ||not in future]?

I have a lot of faith in myself.

7) do you think fighting make any sense?

it depends, what kind of fighting.

8) was last question clever?

yes.

9) which places you'd like to visit?

greece, italy, spain, usa, uk, maybe an island in the middle of pacific ocean. and a lot more.

10)honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? why?

now? iska and sycha.

11) what's your mobile phone?

sony ericsson k700i.

12) would you like to have (new) one?

totally yes.

13) do you like to:

smile?

sure!

14) write poems?

writing is love.

15) eat?

yea.

16) english?

I love english.

17) french?

totally!

18)slovene?

yyy...no?

19) polish?

I do.

20) sports?

some of them, but mostly watching.

21) internet?

yay.

22) do you think life gets better or worse day by day?

my life will get better, I hope.

23) are you nervous or calm person?

nervous when people around are calm. calm when people around are nervous.

24) is there any message you'd like to tell the world?

peace. that's what we need. stop fighting.

25) what's your favourite line in the song?

for today: I'll be your doctor, I'll be your cure, I'll be your medicine and more.

26) the cuttest thing you've ever heard?

I can't repeat it briefly, but it was said by a boy I loved for a long time.

27) do you love your parents?

of course I do.

28)what would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?

call all my family and friends and tell that I love them. then get drunk and dance all night long.

29) do you often think about death?

sometimes.

30) is this the last question?

I hope so.

I don't like tagging, so I'm not going to tag anyone.

by Darkragazza666 and Anula333.

The challenge:  List 12 songs that cheer you up.

The rules:  Tag 10 people... then those people should tag 8 more after that.

It's hard to decide, because tomorrow I'll have a new list of songs that cheer me up. But fot today:

10. Green Day- Letterbomb
9. Franz Ferdinand- Eleanor put your boots on
8. Blaqk Audio- Semiotic Love
7. The Used- Devil Beside You
6. Motion City Soundtrack- Everything is alright
5. Panic At The Disco- Nine in the afternoon
4. Cobra Starship- The ballad of big poppa and diamond girl
3. The Pigeon Detectives- Take her back
2. The Killers- Where the white boys dance
1. My Chemical Romance- My way home is through you


<3

sorry guys, I can't remember who tagged me to do it! I bet it was Iska and Iero4ka. maybe somebody else? duh.

so, enjoy my ten favourite bands! veeery hard choice.
these are the bands I can't live without ;]

10.Hellogoodbye


9.Paramore


8.The Hush Sound


7.Lostprophets


6.The Academy Is...


5.AFI


4.Happysad

it's a polish band.

3.Panic! At The Disco


2.My Chemical Romance


well, you know me. I think you already know my number one ;]
1. Fall Out Boy


yeah, clap your hands now^^

top 10 albums, that I've been listening this year. tagged by clangirl.
1.Fall Out Boy- Infinity On High
2.Panic! At The Disco- A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
3.My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade
4.Happysad- Nieprzygoda
5.Lostprophets- Liberation Transmission
6.AFI- Decemberunderground
7.Paramore- Riot!
8.The Hush Sound- Like Vines
9.Hellogoodbye- Zombies! Aliens! Vampires! Dinosaurs!
10.The Kooks- Inside In, Inside Out (because my friend loves them to death ;] )

I've been tagged by hayleygirl =* thanks.
so, I'll try to give you my ten favourite videos:

My Chemical Romance- I'm not okay
My Chemical Romance- Helena
Panic! At The Disco- Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off
Paramore- Misery business
Fall Out Boy- Dance, dance
Fall Out Boy- Thnks fr th mmrs
Fall Out Boy- This ain't a scene, it's an arms race
Fall Out Boy- The take over, the break's over
Lostprophets- Rooftops
AFI- Miss murder

vids are not in order.
I'm not in the mood so I'm not tagging anyone!

Hey, I've been tagged by anula333. Thank you sweetie ;] I've got many fav songs, so I'll choose my favourites at this moments, one song of each band.
Enjoy! :)

Panic! At The Disco- Back to the streets (Nine in the afternoon)
Fall Out Boy- Thriller
LostAlone- Silence
My Chemical Romance- Demolition lovers
Lostprophets- Can't catch tomorrow
Plain White T's- Hey there Delilah
Muse- Supermassive black hole
The Kooks- Pull me in
The Hush Sound- A dark congregation
The Academy Is...-Everything we had

it was hard to choose only ten songs! ;]

now I'm tagging: hayleygirl, potatokat, hellocouture, maara, fobhemingway and anyone else who wants ;]
hugs and kisses.

moje opowiadanie!!!

http://give-me-attention.blog.onet.pl

serdecznie zapraszam do czytania pierwszego rozdziału. kolejne wkrótce.

I was tagged by potatokat.
my 10 celeb crushes, without photos, sorry!

10. Gabe Saporta
9. William Beckett
8. Frank Iero
7. Milo Ventimiglia
6. Mikey Way

and the final five, but without order. I can't decice, so they're all at first place ;]

1. Ryan Ross
1. Brendon Urie
1. Peter Wentz
1. Patrick Stump
1. Gerard Way

I'm tagging:
athena1225, disparedarkness93, summerstorm, crashingsounds2go, musicxaddict, punky24, bulletprooflonliness, vidyisthenewcancer, sophiaa, musicallover62191.

I was tagged by potatokat, thanks girl;]

Here are the rules:
1) Only list 8 facts.
2) You must then list 8 TAGS at the end of the post. This means you must name 8 people on Buzznet who now must do the same blog.
3) Go comment on their profile and tell them to come read yours! I want participation.

Totally random facts about me:
1. I take too much painkillers. I know it's stupid but I can help it. Maybe I'm addicted right now.

2. Some people think they know me, but they don't. At all. Sometimes I think my virtual friends know me better than my real friends. I'm secretive and I feel good with this.

3. My hair are my obsession, really. Cause I think they make me special. I'm going to the hairdresser soon and I'm going to get a new cool hairstyle;]

4. People tell me I'm good at writing. I always get good grades at school when I have to write something. I have a blog and write a diary. And also poems, but nobody will ever read them!

5. I'm a camera whore. Totally. I don't think I'm really cute or something, but I just like GOOD pictures of myself. That's all.

6. I like black make-up, skulls, stripes. Emo-style, but I'm not an emo inside. And I'm not so crazy about fashion.

7. Music freak! Without music I love, my life would be empty. Everything I listen to, goes deep into my heart;]

8. I've never been in a relationship. Now I'm in love, but it still brings me misery. Hope I will find my luck soon!

Okay, so now it's my turn! I'm tagging lostdestiny, punky24, shewantsyou, lostpropheta7, ikilledkatie, ringinginmyear, agaquendi, lostprophets91.

some questions are really stupid. sorry, but it's not my fault ;] Have you ever?
smoked a cigarette?:	no
smoked a cigar?:	no
done drugs?:	no
drank alcohol?:	yes
been in love?:	yes
been dumped?:	no
shoplifted?:	no
been fired?:	no
been in a fight?:	no
snuck out of your house?:	no
been arrested?:	no
made out with a stranger?:	no
gone out on a blind date?:	no
lied to a friend?:	yes
had a crush on a teacher?:	no
skipped school?:	yes
slept with a co-worker?:	no
seen someone die?:	no
had/have a crush on 1 of your myspace friends:	no
been to Canada?:	no
been to Mexico?:	no
been on a plane?:	no
thrown up from drinking?:	no
eaten sushi?:	no
been skiing?:	no
been in an abusive relationship?:	no
taken pain killers?:	yes
love someone right now?:	yes
laid on your back & watch the clouds?:	yes
made a snow angel?:	yes
used a fake ID?:	no
watched the sunset?:	yes
touched a snake?:	yes
felt an earthquake?:	no
been tickeled?:	yes
been robbed?:	no
been misunderstood?:	yes
won a contest?:	yes
been suspended from school?:	no
had detention?:	no
been in a wreck?:	no
had/have braces?:	yes
had a one night stand?:	no
danced in the moonlight?:	yes
hated the way you look?:	yes
witnessed a crime?:	no
had deja vu?:	yes
stripped for someone?:	no
walked barefoot thru the mud?:	no
been lost?:	no
been to the other side of the country?:	yes
swam in the ocean?:	no
felt like you were dying?:	no
pole danced?:	?
played cops & robbers?:	yes
cried yourself to sleep?:	yes
done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?:	yes
made prank phone calls?:	yes
caught a snowflake on your tongue?:	yes
kissed someone in the rain?:	no
blowed bubbles?:	yes
told a stranger you loved them?:	no
had a wish come true?:	yes
jumped off a bridge?:	no
kissed a fish?:	no
ate dogfood?:	no
sang in the shower?:	yes
had sex in the woods?:	no
had sex in the park?:	no
had sex in the car?:	no
had sex in the pool?:	no
sat on a roof top?:	no
worn the opposite sex clothes?:	yes
had sex at a church?:	no
screamed at the top of your lungs?:	yes
stayed up all night?:	yes
didn't take a shower for a week?:	no
climbed a tree?:	yes
believed in ghosts?:	no
been streaking?:	yes
been skinny dipping?:	no
been to jail?:	no
been told you were hot by a complete stranger?:	yes
been pushed into a pool?:	yes
played chicken?:	no
broken a bone?:	no
been easily amused?:	yes
caught a fish, & ate it?:	no
made a porn video?:	no
had nude photos taken of you?:	no
laughed so hard you cried?:	yes
cried so hard you laughed?:	no
caught a butterfly?:	yes
mooned/ flashed someone?:	no
had someone moon/flash you?:	no
licked a cat?:	no
forgotten somone's name?:	yes
went scuba diving/snorkeling?:	no
bitten someone?:	yes
been kicked out of your house?:	no